It’s been 9 years since I graduated from university. Time passes so quickly. I even still remember the first days in the college. Yeah it was after 1998 FIFA world cup grand final between French and Brazil. The day when I woke up late and had to get hurry to the class. With very short hair just like in the army, bringing funny accessories and ready to make an action with other friends in ‘ospek days’. What a good memories! And yes, we’ll never realize what a good memories till we try to forget it.
Now, I’m thinking to come back to the college, continuing my study. I’ve never thought about it before. I had a goal to move abroad and taking my master degree there, somewhere in europe. The way that several of my friends have already enjoyed. Poor me! I have still no chance. And even I still have any idea of what I’m interested in. Oh God. It’s too late in my age. I have to realize that’s not my way. I got another activity that I have to focus in. Hard work with enthusiasm.
I work in a place that I do not enjoy it very much. As it’s getting harder and harder to earn a living, so I have to stay in the office, while seeking another opportunity. Actually I like the environment, friends, but I still cant enjoy my daily activities. I dont know why but I feel something goes wrong. I have to find the way out. The way I’ve chosen whatever the consequences might be. God please show me the way.